Why do I study psychology?
It is to understand humans.
To understand humans sometimes fascinates me.
Whether it is in the philosophical, occult ,medical or psychological point of view.
Humans are complex beings,
They are beautiful on its own.
As well as destructive in nature.
i believe there is no real interpretation of truth in humanity.
For they deny everything . :) -Reynolds
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
pasal GF's.
Whenever I am out, I would give a call to my mother.
"Hello ma, I am not going home for dinner. "
She would give the most ridiculous reaction.
"Why? paktoh ah? got money or not? dun later the girl pay pula.. malu weh."
Well, THis is my family. My family provides me with absolute freedom, and in truth, my parents want me to have a stable relationship so badly.
If you tell me to count la.. from my first so called "first date until now". Hmm, the numbers would shock you. I shall say. 121? or maybe lesser, MAYBE MORE? God Knows.
Well, it all started with ahem you know who...
Miss S<<<< MY FUCKING FIRST DATE.
Well it wasn't successful. I was 13 that time.
but not for long, there was ANOTHER GIRL. JESSICA~!.
Well I loved her, LOLZ she is really the girl which I would never forget till I die.
But well, eventually she left- TO AUSTRALIA MATE~
and so it ended.
NEXT~ there was this idiotic girl. who brought me to sungai wang plaza and buy lala clothes.
This time, I dump her. LOLZ she is too low .
OK! FROM HERE START LA THE SAGA!...
I date so damn fucking lot of girls. All of the sudden, my confidence come from no where. I dated SO DAMN LOT OF GIRLS! Almost every week one new girl like beli baju only. kanasai weh.
Then you should be wondering, why this sibeh apek can date so many girls 1? O
Eh, uncle ..
This sibeh apek here got few things which many girls want leh.
1) Excel in martial arts -to many girls is manly
2) 6pecs- apek with 6pecs :) this one also enough to make those girls blush and say, "oh my god~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Like those bimbo fat tin. when they touch ur harden muscles.
3) money- okla, I have to admit. I have quite alot of money even though i dun work. My money comes from mummy. Well, the girls dun care where my money come from, as long as I could bring them to Kim Gary restaurant every date then they are happy d.
4) Studies- Okla~ i am good in studies, there is no doubt about it. well, girls normally dun care about studies 1 la..so well~ ahem just an extra attribute.
5) Cute face- OK! THIS 1 I KENA MANY TIMES d. ALL THE GIRLS I DATED WITH SAY "Wee~ you so cute, I wanna pinch your cheek~" ,or "your eyes so big~~ WEEEE~~" they would go crazy bout it..
6) out going- I love to go out and have a drink or whatever when I am free
7) Talkative -well, girls somehow like the guys to talk alot and make jokes wee~~~
Okla~ of course I got weakness also lor.
1) spectacles-girls normally think that wearing spectacles is not cool~ LOLZ i couldn't agree more
2) My philosophy- this is the killer, this is the thing which brings down many relationships.
3) not stylish- obviously~ i dun care how I look~.
4) short- oophs no cure~ LOLZ, I dated a girl who is taller than me before :)
well~ here it goes.. the approximately 121 girls which i have dated, they all left me mainly because of my philosophy.
there are however a few phases when I date a girl
1) introductory phase -i would date the girl, make some jokes, introduce myself and act like a good boy.
2) hyper stage- this is the stage where one goes hyper, bring her for movies, go karaoke, go clubbing.
3) the show off stage - this is where you begin showing off to the girl that you are great and all .
4) the Philosophical stage -i would begin to show my philosophy to the girl- from this stage normally it would continue to decline.
5) declining stage - the girl feels that you are not her type, cause of the philosophy.
6) PISAH.
anyway, this is how it goes la.. :)
that's my life :) idiot.
"Hello ma, I am not going home for dinner. "
She would give the most ridiculous reaction.
"Why? paktoh ah? got money or not? dun later the girl pay pula.. malu weh."
Well, THis is my family. My family provides me with absolute freedom, and in truth, my parents want me to have a stable relationship so badly.
If you tell me to count la.. from my first so called "first date until now". Hmm, the numbers would shock you. I shall say. 121? or maybe lesser, MAYBE MORE? God Knows.
Well, it all started with ahem you know who...
Miss S<<<< MY FUCKING FIRST DATE.
Well it wasn't successful. I was 13 that time.
but not for long, there was ANOTHER GIRL. JESSICA~!.
Well I loved her, LOLZ she is really the girl which I would never forget till I die.
But well, eventually she left- TO AUSTRALIA MATE~
and so it ended.
NEXT~ there was this idiotic girl. who brought me to sungai wang plaza and buy lala clothes.
This time, I dump her. LOLZ she is too low .
OK! FROM HERE START LA THE SAGA!...
I date so damn fucking lot of girls. All of the sudden, my confidence come from no where. I dated SO DAMN LOT OF GIRLS! Almost every week one new girl like beli baju only. kanasai weh.
Then you should be wondering, why this sibeh apek can date so many girls 1? O
Eh, uncle ..
This sibeh apek here got few things which many girls want leh.
1) Excel in martial arts -to many girls is manly
2) 6pecs- apek with 6pecs :) this one also enough to make those girls blush and say, "oh my god~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Like those bimbo fat tin. when they touch ur harden muscles.
3) money- okla, I have to admit. I have quite alot of money even though i dun work. My money comes from mummy. Well, the girls dun care where my money come from, as long as I could bring them to Kim Gary restaurant every date then they are happy d.
4) Studies- Okla~ i am good in studies, there is no doubt about it. well, girls normally dun care about studies 1 la..so well~ ahem just an extra attribute.
5) Cute face- OK! THIS 1 I KENA MANY TIMES d. ALL THE GIRLS I DATED WITH SAY "Wee~ you so cute, I wanna pinch your cheek~" ,or "your eyes so big~~ WEEEE~~" they would go crazy bout it..
6) out going- I love to go out and have a drink or whatever when I am free
7) Talkative -well, girls somehow like the guys to talk alot and make jokes wee~~~
Okla~ of course I got weakness also lor.
1) spectacles-girls normally think that wearing spectacles is not cool~ LOLZ i couldn't agree more
2) My philosophy- this is the killer, this is the thing which brings down many relationships.
3) not stylish- obviously~ i dun care how I look~.
4) short- oophs no cure~ LOLZ, I dated a girl who is taller than me before :)
well~ here it goes.. the approximately 121 girls which i have dated, they all left me mainly because of my philosophy.
there are however a few phases when I date a girl
1) introductory phase -i would date the girl, make some jokes, introduce myself and act like a good boy.
2) hyper stage- this is the stage where one goes hyper, bring her for movies, go karaoke, go clubbing.
3) the show off stage - this is where you begin showing off to the girl that you are great and all .
4) the Philosophical stage -i would begin to show my philosophy to the girl- from this stage normally it would continue to decline.
5) declining stage - the girl feels that you are not her type, cause of the philosophy.
6) PISAH.
anyway, this is how it goes la.. :)
that's my life :) idiot.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Criminalizing War is FOOLISH!
Recently, Dr M came out with the idea of criminalizing war.
Everyone thought it was a good idea.
But I thought of it as a foolish idea by an immature old man who doesn't realize his very own position compared to that of the Heavens and Earth. (No offense, it goes against my philosophy.)
Criminalizing war is like destroying history. The very history of the world was being shaped by wars; it is nothing to be surprised of because humans are destructive beings. The fall of the Roman empire, the rise of the British, the collapse of the Persian giant and the crowning of Alexander- these are all evidence of changes in history.
History could only change dramatically through war and nothing else. War is a beauty by itself; it is only in wars that humans could exhibit their brutality. Humans are like that of animals, a fiend who take an exterior shell in order to fool others as well as themselves. If these energy in them were not released; it would be a painful till death experience for my dear humanity.
The evidence of these could be seen among people who volunteers themselves to be soldiers. What is the purpose of being a soldier to die in a war? This is due to the crave of dying among humanity is strong.
Sigmund Freud has once mentioned that in every humans there is a desire to die... He knew about it.
Would you want a nation to remain as itself forever? It would rot and die by itself, just a living organism which would eventually die due to old age. That's why, when a particular ambition is made, one plans to extent their conquest in order to preserve themselves.
This is clearly seen in the ambition of the Japanese emperor Meiji Mikado. He knew that his country was in the verge of dying, there was no hope left for this living organism known as Japan which was at the very edge of extinction. He decided to expand. And from there, there was war. And war... created history.
If we are restricted to only ourselves, then the world would slowly rot away.
If one were to criminalize war, then history would slowly be eaten away by some stupid ideals which doesn't make sense at all.
Yes of course, if you were to ciminalize war, there would be peace, but would this peace be the "TRUTHFUL" peace? As a nation begins to rot, more people would starve, the murder rate would go higher, eventually the world would turn to be chaos. People would live in fear, it would be a day-by-day world destruction. The energy suppressed by these individuals would be released in their inner domains, and thus affecting the innocent others.
CANT YOU SEE IT?
By destroying history, the world would be destroyed. A great terror would reign over the four edges of the world!!!!
People, you must know.. that
only a person such as Anti-Christ would dare to talk about criminalizing war.
This is beyond destructive! It would destroy the balance of nature!! and nature would destroy you!!
If you were to see this in a current perspective, you could also see the sudden changes that would happen if you were to criminalize war. The armies would lose their jobs, the tension would expand. Countries such as North Korea which based solely on military powers would crumble- the fate of the people who believes so much in their leader would run astray. O, poor sheep who lost their masters, there would be no one else who would lead thy to clear waters and green pastures. This is serious business indeed.
Think TWICE before advocating the criminalization of war. It might destroy the world, for it messes with nature.
Everyone thought it was a good idea.
But I thought of it as a foolish idea by an immature old man who doesn't realize his very own position compared to that of the Heavens and Earth. (No offense, it goes against my philosophy.)
Criminalizing war is like destroying history. The very history of the world was being shaped by wars; it is nothing to be surprised of because humans are destructive beings. The fall of the Roman empire, the rise of the British, the collapse of the Persian giant and the crowning of Alexander- these are all evidence of changes in history.
History could only change dramatically through war and nothing else. War is a beauty by itself; it is only in wars that humans could exhibit their brutality. Humans are like that of animals, a fiend who take an exterior shell in order to fool others as well as themselves. If these energy in them were not released; it would be a painful till death experience for my dear humanity.
The evidence of these could be seen among people who volunteers themselves to be soldiers. What is the purpose of being a soldier to die in a war? This is due to the crave of dying among humanity is strong.
Sigmund Freud has once mentioned that in every humans there is a desire to die... He knew about it.
Would you want a nation to remain as itself forever? It would rot and die by itself, just a living organism which would eventually die due to old age. That's why, when a particular ambition is made, one plans to extent their conquest in order to preserve themselves.
This is clearly seen in the ambition of the Japanese emperor Meiji Mikado. He knew that his country was in the verge of dying, there was no hope left for this living organism known as Japan which was at the very edge of extinction. He decided to expand. And from there, there was war. And war... created history.
If we are restricted to only ourselves, then the world would slowly rot away.
If one were to criminalize war, then history would slowly be eaten away by some stupid ideals which doesn't make sense at all.
Yes of course, if you were to ciminalize war, there would be peace, but would this peace be the "TRUTHFUL" peace? As a nation begins to rot, more people would starve, the murder rate would go higher, eventually the world would turn to be chaos. People would live in fear, it would be a day-by-day world destruction. The energy suppressed by these individuals would be released in their inner domains, and thus affecting the innocent others.
CANT YOU SEE IT?
By destroying history, the world would be destroyed. A great terror would reign over the four edges of the world!!!!
People, you must know.. that
only a person such as Anti-Christ would dare to talk about criminalizing war.
This is beyond destructive! It would destroy the balance of nature!! and nature would destroy you!!
If you were to see this in a current perspective, you could also see the sudden changes that would happen if you were to criminalize war. The armies would lose their jobs, the tension would expand. Countries such as North Korea which based solely on military powers would crumble- the fate of the people who believes so much in their leader would run astray. O, poor sheep who lost their masters, there would be no one else who would lead thy to clear waters and green pastures. This is serious business indeed.
Think TWICE before advocating the criminalization of war. It might destroy the world, for it messes with nature.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Sharpening the blade.
12.44am, 10 November, 2009.
Reynolds decided to move.
He grabs a knife on his right hand and cuts the flesh of his left arm.
As the blood flows down dripping on to a piece of white paper.
He started to whisper to himself.
"Dear God..." he said.
"Even if I am reborn 10 thousand times. I would never dream of being someone like myself.”
“Here I am, creating a vow. I will declare my body to be with that of perfection. Until then, I will continue striving physically and mentally; like a blacksmith who sharpens his blade.”
I will be perfect.
Reynolds always believes that one day, he too could be on par with the almighty. For the almighty is perfect -who is also the creator. Therefore, he believes that we too are perfect for our creator is perfect. Reynolds always doubts that humans has a particular limit to a certain potential. He believes that through experience, hardship and pain only one could achieve his highest glory.
Reynolds decided to move.
He grabs a knife on his right hand and cuts the flesh of his left arm.
As the blood flows down dripping on to a piece of white paper.
He started to whisper to himself.
"Dear God..." he said.
"Even if I am reborn 10 thousand times. I would never dream of being someone like myself.”
“Here I am, creating a vow. I will declare my body to be with that of perfection. Until then, I will continue striving physically and mentally; like a blacksmith who sharpens his blade.”
I will be perfect.
Reynolds always believes that one day, he too could be on par with the almighty. For the almighty is perfect -who is also the creator. Therefore, he believes that we too are perfect for our creator is perfect. Reynolds always doubts that humans has a particular limit to a certain potential. He believes that through experience, hardship and pain only one could achieve his highest glory.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
A BIG.... Dildo...
I dreamed of a giant penis
it was like a skyscraper.
The penis begins its transformation.
into a big dildo..
I kept looking at it from a distant (i dunno where)
It begun its ejaculation.
Everyone beneath were running away.
I could hear the voice of an old friend, Amerul Ariff Shouting.. "its gonna explode, its gonna explode..."
And boom~~~!!!!
The Giant Dildo Ejaculated.
It was a A BIG... Dildo indeed... yum~
it was like a skyscraper.
The penis begins its transformation.
into a big dildo..
I kept looking at it from a distant (i dunno where)
It begun its ejaculation.
Everyone beneath were running away.
I could hear the voice of an old friend, Amerul Ariff Shouting.. "its gonna explode, its gonna explode..."
And boom~~~!!!!
The Giant Dildo Ejaculated.
It was a A BIG... Dildo indeed... yum~
Saturday, October 31, 2009
The Radiant of Ari.
Every time I enter class, I could see a sort of radiant being produced by Mr Aristotle.
I have always wondered why did he have such an aura emanating throughout his body. Day by day, I have wondered and begin my own investigation on what the radiant is about.
I have toughened up my 5 senses in order to find the truth, but the truth of course, did not prevail as I have expected. This is a story of my experiment with Mr Aristotle's aura. What is it that made him different? What is it that way?
Soon I have noticed that I am the only one who could sense his aura, this is of course a question to me. Why could he be different with the others? I decided to write down on a piece of paper, of what I have sensed this is because I knew that the mind could fool himself without the means of microscopic and systematic observation.
I first investigated his inner self, I have always thought that Mr Aristotle is a man of inner nature. Being able to figure his inner self provides an evidence of his existence of a being. But I was wrong, the inner self of Mr Aristotle did not reveal much of being as would I have expected.
Day by day, I have pondered to myself, who is this guy? What makes him different? Why did he have the aura?
I was told that he meditated everyday by a member of my class. Virtually, I could see Mr Aristotle resembles that of a Hindu God, exhibiting his authority towards thus many people. It is probably his doppelganger, or perhaps it is a homunculus, I have not a single idea. But that is what I saw - his inner entity.
I gave up and approached it in a different manner through that of a skin-deep observation. These were my notes while I was observing him.
Sight : A faint light, surrounding his body which covers about 2 inches thick. He used to walk around in class bare-footed and owns a curled up hair like that of a medieval Englishman. The shirt he wears were always like that of a typical Indian, unbuttoned on his chest level most of the time, and were always untugged.
Smell: A very pungent sweat smell from his hair. Most of the time he smells like that of a dead "ikan bilis" and at times, he smells like fried fritters. He was always sweating, and has a very horrible smells emanating from his mouth. Sometimes it smells like
Touch: I do not touch man often, therefore I am unclear about this. But I do get to touch his back when I provide him a massage on his shoulder or just get to smack his back lightly when he makes a joke. I could feel that he was some how different, his body is like that of a rigid person, perhaps it is due to his job which is stressful that produces such an intense stress. Often he has sweat on his palm when I shake his hands.
Hear: i could hear his voice like that of an ordinary individual, sometimes soar, but most of the time, he exhibits authority like that of a man who is interested to know everything.
Taste: i did not get to taste him.
I was frustrated, for I could not complete my systematic observation and study upon Mr Aristotle, i therefore agreed to look up upon other fields in order to see how such aura could emanate from his body.
We shall see what I have found.
1) It is his homunculus.
2) he practices Reiki; it is his universal life energy.
3) he has a very strong mind, therefore he could amplify his brainwave to the outside of his body.
4) I have hallucinations
5) He is an Hindu God.
6) He is a man of truth- he was awakened.
Later only did I know, that he was awakened....
One day, I was in the parking lot, I asked him.
Reynolds: Sir, What do you think life is about? seriously...
Aristotle: Life is to find the truth..
Reynolds: I have went under deep meditation and understood that life is to live.
Aristotle: yes, life is to live and find the truth.
At that moment, it has became clear to me, for some reasons. No explanation was needed, but I have understood immediately what he meant.
The aura also appeared on me.
He has been awakened.
I have always wondered why did he have such an aura emanating throughout his body. Day by day, I have wondered and begin my own investigation on what the radiant is about.
I have toughened up my 5 senses in order to find the truth, but the truth of course, did not prevail as I have expected. This is a story of my experiment with Mr Aristotle's aura. What is it that made him different? What is it that way?
Soon I have noticed that I am the only one who could sense his aura, this is of course a question to me. Why could he be different with the others? I decided to write down on a piece of paper, of what I have sensed this is because I knew that the mind could fool himself without the means of microscopic and systematic observation.
I first investigated his inner self, I have always thought that Mr Aristotle is a man of inner nature. Being able to figure his inner self provides an evidence of his existence of a being. But I was wrong, the inner self of Mr Aristotle did not reveal much of being as would I have expected.
Day by day, I have pondered to myself, who is this guy? What makes him different? Why did he have the aura?
I was told that he meditated everyday by a member of my class. Virtually, I could see Mr Aristotle resembles that of a Hindu God, exhibiting his authority towards thus many people. It is probably his doppelganger, or perhaps it is a homunculus, I have not a single idea. But that is what I saw - his inner entity.
I gave up and approached it in a different manner through that of a skin-deep observation. These were my notes while I was observing him.
Sight : A faint light, surrounding his body which covers about 2 inches thick. He used to walk around in class bare-footed and owns a curled up hair like that of a medieval Englishman. The shirt he wears were always like that of a typical Indian, unbuttoned on his chest level most of the time, and were always untugged.
Smell: A very pungent sweat smell from his hair. Most of the time he smells like that of a dead "ikan bilis" and at times, he smells like fried fritters. He was always sweating, and has a very horrible smells emanating from his mouth. Sometimes it smells like
Touch: I do not touch man often, therefore I am unclear about this. But I do get to touch his back when I provide him a massage on his shoulder or just get to smack his back lightly when he makes a joke. I could feel that he was some how different, his body is like that of a rigid person, perhaps it is due to his job which is stressful that produces such an intense stress. Often he has sweat on his palm when I shake his hands.
Hear: i could hear his voice like that of an ordinary individual, sometimes soar, but most of the time, he exhibits authority like that of a man who is interested to know everything.
Taste: i did not get to taste him.
I was frustrated, for I could not complete my systematic observation and study upon Mr Aristotle, i therefore agreed to look up upon other fields in order to see how such aura could emanate from his body.
We shall see what I have found.
1) It is his homunculus.
2) he practices Reiki; it is his universal life energy.
3) he has a very strong mind, therefore he could amplify his brainwave to the outside of his body.
4) I have hallucinations
5) He is an Hindu God.
6) He is a man of truth- he was awakened.
Later only did I know, that he was awakened....
One day, I was in the parking lot, I asked him.
Reynolds: Sir, What do you think life is about? seriously...
Aristotle: Life is to find the truth..
Reynolds: I have went under deep meditation and understood that life is to live.
Aristotle: yes, life is to live and find the truth.
At that moment, it has became clear to me, for some reasons. No explanation was needed, but I have understood immediately what he meant.
The aura also appeared on me.
He has been awakened.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Pain and pleasure.
If we were to see the world in the Epicurean point of view, "the highest good is pleasure and the worst evil is pain".
This is a false believe. Pain and pleasure are associated into one. Pleasure and pain share a same commonality for both of these characteristics stems out from the very state of mind .
Why would one rather seek for pleasure instead of pain?
That question is undeniably because of the society. Since the time of Epicurus , the distinction between pain and pleasure has became a reality- it is implanted in the minds of people that Pleasure is Good and Pain is Bad.
What truly exist is of the contrary, pleasure and pain provides the same amount of satisfaction to the body. That's why these two extremes are could be seen hidden in so many ways. For example, pleasure is expressed in the forms of living a lavish life, or also known to be good in the society, people who expresses their need towards pleasure are well respected.
On the other hand, pain is expressed through the form of brutality. People seek for pain through martial arts and in the army. Only when there's a war the need for pain is being expressed outwardly towards the people. In the contrary, pain is being regarded as a deviant in the era of peace, but these energy are being concealed into the minds of people.
Humans are nothing more but a sand monster taking up any shape in the situation they are in. None of them knew what is it like to be themselves, for the society has made them that way. Life has became nothing but a manual to follow.
This is like walking in a great labyrinth, without anticipating the fun of the maze but rather to follow where the crowd leads you to- the exit.
That's why, I rather defy myself in being human like a sand monster in a desert. But to be what I am. Closely examining every little tiny object in this world as if my life is depending on it.
We could then see that by means of microscopic observation and astronomical projection the lotus flower can become the foundation for an entire theory of the universe and an agent whereby we may perceive the Truth. And first we must know that each of the petals has eighty-four thousand veins and that each vein gives eighty-four thousand lights.
I rather be like this and enjoy the labyrinth of life like a game instead of a challenge
This is a false believe. Pain and pleasure are associated into one. Pleasure and pain share a same commonality for both of these characteristics stems out from the very state of mind .
Why would one rather seek for pleasure instead of pain?
That question is undeniably because of the society. Since the time of Epicurus , the distinction between pain and pleasure has became a reality- it is implanted in the minds of people that Pleasure is Good and Pain is Bad.
What truly exist is of the contrary, pleasure and pain provides the same amount of satisfaction to the body. That's why these two extremes are could be seen hidden in so many ways. For example, pleasure is expressed in the forms of living a lavish life, or also known to be good in the society, people who expresses their need towards pleasure are well respected.
On the other hand, pain is expressed through the form of brutality. People seek for pain through martial arts and in the army. Only when there's a war the need for pain is being expressed outwardly towards the people. In the contrary, pain is being regarded as a deviant in the era of peace, but these energy are being concealed into the minds of people.
Humans are nothing more but a sand monster taking up any shape in the situation they are in. None of them knew what is it like to be themselves, for the society has made them that way. Life has became nothing but a manual to follow.
This is like walking in a great labyrinth, without anticipating the fun of the maze but rather to follow where the crowd leads you to- the exit.
That's why, I rather defy myself in being human like a sand monster in a desert. But to be what I am. Closely examining every little tiny object in this world as if my life is depending on it.
We could then see that by means of microscopic observation and astronomical projection the lotus flower can become the foundation for an entire theory of the universe and an agent whereby we may perceive the Truth. And first we must know that each of the petals has eighty-four thousand veins and that each vein gives eighty-four thousand lights.
I rather be like this and enjoy the labyrinth of life like a game instead of a challenge
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